A Reconciled Marriage After We Had Already Given Up

My husband and I had filed for divorce. The papers were drafted, the mediator had been scheduled, we had told our children. We were both exhausted and had been through counseling that had not resolved the core issues. In a final conversation that was supposed to be logistical, something shifted. I cannot point to a single sentence or moment. We were both quiet for a long time and in that quiet something re-entered the room between us. We looked at each other. We did not speak about it right then. That night we both, independently, prayed for the first time in a long time. He told me the next morning he had felt something the night before. I told him I had too. We cancelled the mediation appointment. We found a different counselor — a faith-based one — and did the real work. That was two years ago. We are still married. Our children do not know how close it came. I know. My husband knows. And we both know we did not save our marriage alone.